Dear MJE readers,
I am a 26 year old banker. While on a training i was scheduled for alongside three other colleagues. I became particularly close to one of them. The guy is a senior colleague who is really good at his job and someone I really learnt from.
Despite just being 26, I have being around at the bank for 4 years (pretty much the start of my career) and as such I have risen to an impressive position. All these have made me meet so many people, some I learn from, some I admire, some I have a crush on and some I despise. But he was someone I always had a crush on.
While in Abuja, I lost the usual grip on me and told him a little bit of how I felt, not with the intention of starting anything but just to ease myself of the silent wishes. I felt more embarrassed when all he did was smile, sipped his drink and said time will tell.
On getting back to Lagos (Work), David has been all over me, not making it visible at work though which I am quite happy about but after work and even weekends, he proposes we hang out, asks if he could come visiting and all.
Ordinarily, these were the things I wished for prior to the training considering the fact that we are both single. However, considering the circumstances surrounding the sudden declarations coming from him, I am forced to think it’s not natural and as such it would not last. Though he later told me had same feeling but didn’t know how to tell me until I voiced out.
But I keep feeling I am the one that made the first move and the one that loves him more. The feeling makes me uncomfortable. Looking into his eyes sometimes gets me terrified, like I might regret it one day.
I know some guys lack courage to take the first move but am I sure I am not the one leading him on?
What do y’all think is advisable? Is he for real or he just wants a fling? Please this is important to me.